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4 days later May 30, 2007

Filed under: Life - Mood: Melancholy — Flickerchic @ 10:52 pm
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and this whole thing is proving to be harder than I anticipated. It tears me apart to spend time with my husband and then at the end of the day we are going to bed in separate houses…separate beds. I think this is hurting me more than if he’d have just said that he was done and didn’t want our marriage anymore. At least that way I’d know EXACTLY where I stand with him. I mean, he’s not even wearing his wedding ring anymore. And that really hurts me. I can’t stop crying even though I am tired of crying. I’m trying to be strong but I feel so weak. S asked me to be strong for him. But who is going to be strong for me? He’s getting everything that he wants out of this when my needs are being pushed to the wayside it seems. Of course I haven’t told him how I’ve been feeling about this. I think I’m too scared that if I do, it’s going to really be OVER! And I don’t want it to be. I want my husband and my family back! I’ve been praying about it and can’t come to any clear answers about what I’m getting from it or what I should do about this.