Today is S’s birthday. We’re not doing much, just hanging out and watching movies. Spending some QT together. I think he noticed a few more gray hairs. LOL We spent some time talking and decided that we are going to move on in marriage. Forget all of the problems of the past. We are going to pick up and start anew. In this, we talked about renewing our wedding vows next year on our anniversary. The fact that we eloped and never had a wedding has always bothered me. In the beginning we were supposed to have a ceremony after we eloped, but as with everything else that got pushed to the wayside in the mix of all of life’s other chaos. Here we are 9 years later and that little tidbit still gnaws at me. I asked S if this is something he really wants to do and he said yes. I know he knows that I want a wedding, but I don’t want him to do it JUST for me. I want him to WANT it as well. Maybe I should stop questioning his motives and just be happy that he wants to do it. It could be a step in the right direction in our marriage. That’s it. I won’t question. I will just do as he asks me to do sometimes: don’t question, just do ask he asks… 🙂
After it’s all said and done… July 20, 2007
I realized that in the last post I forgot to mention that after S found out about Clarissa and I talking and about me finding out EVERYTHING, he suggested we move to Georgia…to start over…FRESH. Me, wanting to make things work, I agree. We decide to up and and move to Ga. He turns in his two weeks notice and I immediately start applying for teaching positions there AND email my resignation to Ms. Walker! Now in the mist of all of this, I start to feel as if I could be pregnant, which prompts a serious convo between S and I. One of the most important points being that I would be pregnant with no insurance. This one fact slaps us with a reality check. Again in deperation I rush to the computer to check for a read receipt on the email that I sent Ms. Walker. To my surprise AND LUCK, the email had been returned undeliverable…I’d sent it to the wrong email address! So we were saved there. Needless to say, S’s resignation letter had been accepted.
When I think about it, I really believe his resignation from his job had more to do with his embarrassment more than anything there. Here he’d been flaunting his relationship with is other woman at work around these people (at least that’s what she said) and she brings them with her to clear out his apartment! Anyway, after it’s all said and done, he’s unemployed and back with me…Hhhmmmpphhh…