OK…I think I better get to work on finding a new doctor. It has been 15 days – barely two weeks – since my last cycle and here it comes again today! WTH??? The ladies on my March Mommies forum assure me that my body is most likely getting back to normal from the miscarriage. But my paranoia with anything going wrong with my health is pushing me toward getting confirmation. Just for my peace of mind.
Aunt Flo shows her ugly face July 13, 2008
Well, it’s day 45 and my cycle finally comes. Although I’m not particularly happy about it, I am glad that something finally happened so I wouldn’t constantly be wondering if (and secretly hoping that ) I’m pregnant.
I keep wondering if I should close that door in my life. I lalready have three beautiful boys. Shouldn’t I just be happy with that? I mean, there are 16 years between K and B. If I had another baby, B would be 20 years older, at least, than that one. With D being 12 years older. Not to mention the handfull that K is. Would I be able -and willing – to have to do all of this over again with another baby. The boys already take up so much of my time and we are comfortable. Would having another baby put us back into financial strain? I don’t know. I love being pregnant and I love babies. I love being a mother, regardless of how hard it is at times. Do I really want to start all over again – for the fourth time?